hugs across the universe™: December 2008

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Thank you for visiting! Making art and crafting away in my studio is what my heart tells me to do and it hasn't steered me wrong yet. I love following my bliss as it feeds the soul. My musical selections are part of my creative process--if you are one of those who hate music on blogs--feel free to turn the bear off by pressing the center button. All images and text (unless otherwise noted) are copyright 2004-2009 by Theresa Smythe. Please be respectful ~ otherwise karma will get you in the end. No doubt.

December 23, 2008

The magic of uncertainty

I can't help feeling like this is an auspicious moment for me at this juncture in time and for that, I am most grateful.

I feel there are two books inside me wanting to come out. The first one, which I wrote the manuscript for already, seems to be giving birth to a second one which is revealing itself to me day by day and is coming about by the drawings I've been doing daily and which I've been posting to this blog as of late.

I have a vague idea where the story is going but there is a lot of uncertainty about where I will end up when I get to the end....but I trust in this "new-to-me" process. The musical selections have a lot to do with my inspiration and I wish there was a way to preserve the audio portion for each post (TypePad, are U listening?). I hope it isn't too frustrating dealing with that because I consider the audio portions of my blog as important as the rest of it.

If I've learned one thing in all my years, I've realized I have an amazing intuitive ability--I trust in the power of my own heart to show me the way. I've come to realize that these two books are in fact, companion books and I would love to see them end up in a slip-cased edition. One is a concept book, and the other is a narrative. How's that for ambitious?!!!
Crazy old me.

Will the book(s) fly? If so, WOW! What a future to behold! All these printed words now will stand even taller in "the making of... where did you get the idea from?"... printed on the jacket flap. And if it doesn't fly, then it's all just me exercising my pencil, getting something out of my system; all for my own good and part of the legacy I leave my son. I can't lose.

But I have to say these books are different from anything I have ever done before both in content and my creative process. I feel they are already there inside me, waiting to be discovered. And the music, oh, the music! That is the new me that has developed along the way. You see, I once spoke about a theory I have about loved ones gone--they live on literally in some way in the ones who loved them. I took up sewing when my mother died--there's a part of her blended with me in some way. And now I realize Johnny's love for music has invaded my being, my blog, my whole world. And I am so inspired by it. These books are born of music, haunting melodies that stir me to create what I feel. These books feel like movies that play again and again in my mind and give me pause to ponder the magic of uncertainty and behold the wonder of it all. For it is in the not knowing that gives me a reason to do. I would love to animate the whole thing for sure.

I also realize that the birth of these books is an experience I will only have this once and for that reason I am also aware that this is a very special moment in time for me. For the discovery and creative process involved is quite meaningful and filled with many emotions.

I consider this creative time to be my Christmas present from the universe. If there was snow falling outside my window it would be just divine so I will imagine it to be just so.

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